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By
Mike Blackwell
A
man is leaving town tomorrow.
Michael came to Brownwood two years ago, a 15-year-old
who was tired of moving, tired of struggling
in school, tired of delivering papers on cold
winter mornings in Illinois. Just tired.
He called me on a Thursday, and by Sunday night,
we began our "new life" together in
an efficiency apartment approximately the size
of your bedroom closet. For a month we lived
in the cramped surroundings before we found
a place in Early. The new home was much larger
than the apartment; his room was in the back
of the house, which enabled me to live with
sanity and peace even when he cranked the volume
on his CD player.
The first months of our life were tricky. His
idea of "loud" and mine differed.
His idea of "good grades" and mine
differed. His idea of "quality" television
and mine differed. We shared laughs, dreams,
bean burritos and arguments. His teachers told
me what a great kid he was, how much fun he
was in the classroom. They also said they wished
he would "focus" more. Gradually,
Michael came to understand this plea.
The grades improved, he found an old beat up
car to drive, and he got a job sacking groceries.
He went to movies and hung out with friends.
He slept late when he could, he played his music
too loud and his room was a wreck. He became
a regular teenager, except that so many things
he did were uniquely Michael.
On too many nights, I would come home late and
throw a couple of corn dogs in the microwave
for supper. He ate them, enjoyed them, appreciated
them.
When money was tight, he never complained. If
I told him to be home at 10, he was home at
10. Every now and then, he would buy me dinner.
Sometimes, when I stuck my head in his room
to tell him good night, he would be listening
to music or drawing or reading the Bible. When
you surprise your kid by sticking your head
in his room and he's reading the Bible, you
feel pretty good about his chances.
He was decent with his chores, although he rarely
remembered to put a new trash bag in the can.
On the days when I was too testy, when I would
frustratingly try and explain to him why I was
unhappy with him about something, he would stop
my rambling and say, "Dad. It's okay. I
understand."
He tolerated my paranoia when he would drive
away. Soon, when he would grab his keys to go,
I would get up to walk him to the door and he
would say, "I know, I know: be careful,
don't drive too fast, don't be where I shouldn't
be, be home on time, here's my driver's license
and you're going to leave the porch light on.
Anything else?"
Then he would shake his head and drive away.
What he said always made me feel better when
the taillights disappeared into the night. The
kid listens, and that's a gift he probably doesn't
fully appreciate now.
He also watched me fall crazily for Angie, and
he came to clearly see what made our relationship
so special. In Angie, Michael saw a woman who
made his dad believe there is life, real life,
beyond the press box. He also saw a woman he
could laugh with, aggravate, talk to. Every
now and then, I would say to Michael, "Isn't
Angie something?", and he would always
say the same thing: "Dad, she's awesome."
From the 15-year-old who needed time and space
and serenity has emerged a 17 year-old with
so much promise. When he walked off the plane
in Dallas two winters ago with a suitcase and
a backpack, headphones blaring, he was a boy
searching for his own place in the world. Now,
as he gets ready to get back on the plane in
Dallas with the same suitcase and backpack,
he knows his place. Now he wants to enjoy his
final two years of high school with his sister,
who is one year behind him in school. When he
graduates, he's thinking about becoming a Marine
or perhaps a Navy Seal, or maybe college.
The other day he said he might even want to
be a preacher. He's not sure what he's going
to do with the rest of his life, and that's
certainly fine with me. I see his eyes, I hear
him talk, I watch him live, and I know that
whatever he does, he'll do well. Wherever he
goes, that place will be better. Whoever he
meets will love him.
A
man is leaving town tomorrow, and if you see
him, wish him luck. And tell him we'll leave
the porch light on.
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